Saturday, April 2, 2011

Indecision




i love you
part-time
in the moment
temporarily
from time to time
i don't mind
our incompatibility
they say that opposites attract
your yang to my yin
your sin to my sin
your vodka to my gin
your excess to my lack
my nightmare is your dream come true
you look a little confused, boo
don't you know who I am?
it's me
the center of your world
it's me
the one who makes your toes curl
muscles tighten
eyes roll to the back of your head
i'm the one
who makes and
breaks your bed
and that's not even my best room

i hate you
part-time
in the moment
temporarily
from woman to man
i can't stand
our incompatibility
i don't talk and you don't listen
you lose, i win
when i sin, you sin
just like that?
what are we missing?
you don't know how to love me
you say
i say
you did fine yesterday
what the hell happened
to today?
i'm still me
well...
maybe i have changed
a little
reassessed my game
a little
stopped placing blame
just a little
my vision is sharper
hard to believe, but
still true
i'm a different person
a brighter star
a better me
and you, boo
you're still you.


If this poem seems familiar to some of you, it's because I shared it once at The Well-Fed Spirit. Just wanted to let you know that I'm still here. This bullshit, too, shall pass. Thank you so much Bruce for checking in with me and making me realize that bullshit is bullshit. Love you to itty bitty pieces!


Hope all is well with all of you. I miss the hell out of you guys. I will try to get caught up on all your lives as soon as I can. Promise.


There is a light at the end of this tunnel. I see it...but I haven't reached it yet. 


Love and big hugs,


Mrs. Hyde

13 comments:

  1. Love the poem! Remember, if you're going thru hell, keep going! Hugs.

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  2. great poem and good to see you on my blog roll...

    i know you will come out the other end as you are one tough cookie...

    love and hugs!

    thoughts and prayers!

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  3. Wonderful poem but I hate that you are hurting/struggling right now. You know my email address (its in my about me section) if you need to vent. I'm a fantastic listener. That being said...you rock my bloggy world and I know you will be just fine on the other side. The journey there may not be as quick as you'd like but you will get there, my dear.

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  4. Great poem.

    And keep your chin up, things do improve.

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  5. This is one of my faves. I have it up on my inspiration board from the last time you posted it.

    Hang in there love. And remember: that which doesn't kill you, gives you the excuse of reasonable doubt to kill someone else.

    It's all perspective.

    Thinking of ya. Much love.

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  6. That light can sometimes be a train.:)

    LOVE the poem! You're spirit is beautiful.

    We're all having a time right now. You hang in there and know you're loved! XOXO from South Florida!

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  7. Hang in there, Mrs. Hyde! This, too, shall pass. Take care of yourself. We'll be here when you get back. {{hugs}}

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  8. missed you darling lady and been thinking of you. Know you have our support and we will all still be here when you come back.
    Hugs
    And I love the poem too. xxx

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  9. hey hottie!
    gave you and the zen bitch an award..at my JADIP blog...
    cuz i am all warm and fuzzy like that...

    and you deserve it cuz i love your blog(s)!

    do with it what you will...

    i will be posting the blog soon...

    Bruce and Tucker
    Bruce Johnson JADIP
    Evil Twin
    stupid stuff I see and hear
    The Dreamodeling Guy
    dreamodeling!
    The Guy Book
    The Guy Book

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  10. That was a beautiful poem, darlin'.

    You're brilliant, so don't worry because you will beat this trial in the ass.

    *hugs*

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  11. Lolamouse- I'm trying to keep going, but the bullshit keeps blocking my path.

    Becca- Thank you!

    Bruce- Sometimes the tough cookies crumble, too. These fools better watch out if I do, though. Thanks for the award! Love ya!

    Jewels- Aw, thank you so much. I may take you up on that.

    OT- Thanks, friend. I do know that, but I feel like I've been on this same bullshit path for way too long.

    Rabbit- I love the way your mind works!

    Mamma- I hope it is a train so I can hop on and get the hell outta dodge!

    OMS- Thanks so much! I worry about losing my readers and friends when I don't blog.

    Mynx- Thank you, my friend. I appreciate your support.

    Kat- If I don't kick its ass, I'm gonna die trying.

    Dad- You sound a little down yourself. Is everything ok?

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